Yoo-Hoo.

So today is really shitty for some reason. I wish I knew why. I can't wait to talk to him tonight... He'll make everything better. I never knew how fast I could fall in love with someone. I love him. I really do. Maybe more tan I loved Cody. I can't wait to see him again... Even if it is only on Skype. He's given me a reason to live again. I just wish I could be with him every day... I can't believe I've fallen so hard and fast like this... Whenever I think about him my heart beats fast and I can't stop smiling...

Anyways, off the topic of my Dorkasaurus Rexx... Life sucks. I'm failing my classes, I'm being teased at school for something I've never done, and I can't focus. Again, I'm in Spanish and I can't concentrate. Mom refuses to let me home school... Does she even care about my future? She told me that my dreams can never happen in the real world... It crushed me. She told me I'm gonna be a failure in life. I can't stop these tears yet again. I'm just a fucking stupid emo kid. I want to go home... I wanna run away... I miss my baby... He heals my pain inside. Something tells me I'm not going to ALPS. I should do Mom's painting... Which I am... She just doesn't know it. I'm trying hard to balance my life and have fun at the same time, but I can't . Not when mom expects me to be the "perfect child," but I can't when all she does is point out my flaws. I'm sorry to everyone that I'm not perfect. I wanna move to Washington. Start over. Away from everyone... Closer to Him... I wish I could... Escape this hell. I hate it here 99% of the time. It's only when I'm alone when I'm okay. When I'm alone things are better. I hate people... I love him... I wish he lived here. I can't wait for him to go to Nettles Island, FL, so I can see him. He said he'd walk that whole way, if it meant he has a chance to see me. He's so adorable. I love him.

I wonder if I'll be quiet around him. I wonder if it'll be awkward... I want to find out. I love him so much. I wish we could, like, room together. That'd be awesome. He's only two years older... He's so cute. And, thankfully, he's mine. I'm envious of all the people who get to see him every day. I 'm really not afraid to say it anymore; I love you, ***.

-Sammie