Home school...

I've decided to drop out of school... like physical school. I want to be home schooled. I hate people... I just want to stay home, and do that CSN home school thing. I'd work harder. I'd be better than I am right now. I'd apply myself more. Friends just get in the middle of my studies; they slow me down. I love them to death, but... In order to reach my potential I need to be by myself. I'll be able to breeze through school, I'd be happier. Yeah, I may not have many friends, but seriously, not many people keep their high school buddies throughout college. I'm sick of people. I'd never hurt anyone, but I just want most of them gone. I want to learn more and more. I want to be able to go on vacation whenever. I want to be home schooled so badly. I want to spend more time with Mom. I want to be able to learn. School has distractions; even if I went to CSN I wouldn't use my full potential. I'd be so much better off if I could be home schooled. No worries about forgetting homework. No unnecessary drama. No people lacking common sense. I really want to be able to learn at my own pace, my owl level. I CAN'T learn well with other people around. I just can't. I came to Barron because CSN wasn't working at all. CSN would have been ridicule all day and teachers who hold hands all the way. Barron is heartbreak, unnecessary drama, and teachers, except Mrs. Byrne, who don't care about work. I'm fine with redoing freshman year if it means being home schooled and being able to really apply myself. I'm going to talk to my mom about this because I don't register anything I'm learning anymore. My brain can't do work well when there's side talk. It shuts down and I can't understand anything. I need 100% one on one attention. People distract me. I think and care about them more than my work. I love being alone; it's the only way I can think. For example. I'm here in Spanish class and I can't pay attention to the lesson; I only hear side talk. I won't be able to accomplish anything if this keeps going on. I've lost motivation to try because I can't understand anything anymore. I need this to stop so badly...

-Sammie