Birthday.

So I was just thinking about what I wanted for my birthday, and I realized all I want is to spend the day with Kal... Like physically have him here for my birthday. But for those who can't give me that, I just want money or book store gift cards. For mangas. Haha. I need to stop spending money so carelessly. I'd cry if I could be with Kal on my birthday. Tears of happiness. I'd rather be anywhere but here without him. I love Kal. So much. I wanna impress his sister because they're so close. I want her to like me... He's lucky to have someone that close to him. I wish I did. I block people out. I'm starting to let Kal in; though it's hard. I try to keep strong in front of him... I'm so scared I'll lose him from my stupidity. I always tend to screw things up, so I'm trying my hardest to not do anything stupid. I don't know why I was scared he'd cheat... I guess it's because whenever I get attached they hurt me... All those boys I've dated in the past have mentally crippled me. Kal's the one who can help me... I love you...

-Sammie